have you ever ... ?

it's been awhile since i've truly been happy. i mean, i don't even remember the last time i just smiled for no reason or when my heart simply beat fast just at a single thought. so this morning, i woke up and i wasn't happy for some reason. i've been dragging about all day and i can't explain why. i guess it's like monica said- it's just one of those days.

but anyways, i got in small contact with one of my ex-guy friends and wished him a happy new year. we have some small history together and he helped contribute to why my last few weeks have been like BLAH!!! continuing, i wished him a happy new years, in hopes that we'd have a thorough conversation or something, but we didn't. he just wished me the same and told me that he knows that i'll make all of my dreams come true. for some reason, that's not what i wanted to hear. i'm not sure if i still have feelings for him ... i don't think i do. but to make sure, i deleted his number and his friendship on one of those "sites". i just wanted to make sure that he doesn't creep back up sometime soon. i think our friendship is done (i'll go into detail in the future), but i dunno ... have you ever had that feeling? tell me about it.